Peter's Place

As I've recently blogged about, I had an intake appointment with RPC to try to get back into treatment. I met with the director (who holds a MSW ) and a psychiatrist (who would become my psychiatrist if I were accepted). During the intake, they ask a number of questions to try to get an overview of your current and previous mental health issues. During the "interview" (for lack of a better term), I was asked about prior treatment, prior hospitalizations, and current feelings. As I've previously mentioned, I've been hospitalized on a number of occasions for my depression , usually when it gets to the point of my becoming suicidal . Over the past few years, I've been getting better about knowing when I need to put myself into the hospital to keep me safe -- when these suicidal thoughts become overwhelming and I feel like acting upon them. Right now, I don't think I'm at that point, but the Dr. asked me if I was having any of these thoughts, and I told h...

I've been off my meds for three months now. I have an intake appointment tomorrow morning with Rockland Psychiatric Center's Mount Vernon Clinic, where I hopefully will get back into treatment and back on my meds ( Paxil , Buspar , and Remeron ). In the meantime, as I'm not currently in treatment, my depression, and the symptoms I'm exhibiting, are getting progressively worse as time marches forward. The depression has started to affect my thinking processes and comprehension abilities. I just finished reading The Last Precinct by Patricia Cornwell . It took me over a week to finish the hardcover book, which is about 445 pages. Normally (that is, when the depression isn't this bad), it would have taken me a mere two or three days, tops, to read the book at a leisurely reading pace. This is just one indication that, currently, my ability to focus and concentrate isn't so great. If I continue to go without treatment, it could get to the point of my not being able...